Tuesday, 21 February 2017

A little bit lost.

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I must admit I have been really struggling lately and I can't even explain why. I usually struggle with big lengthy heartfelt posts, but this one seems to be flowing out so I am just gunna roll with it..

Everyday I wake up to a kind of groundhog day situation. I wake up, get ready, go to work, come home, have dinner, go to bed. This could honestly repeat itself on a loop for at least 50 days before I then throw in a little Nando's or something to break the chain. Maybe this just comes with a 9-5 job I always tell myself, but I hate it and it just seems that this is what my life has become - a routine. I know I need to do more, but I don't really have too many friends and I'm trying to save to move out, so I just continue plodding along. I know that I desperately need to break this cycle and do more but it is much harder than it sounds. I think it can become very easy to get into the habit of saying no, that you eventually never want to say yes anyway and then it becomes a vicious circle.

I feel like I have lost myself ever so slightly and this makes me sad. My style, my oomph, just everything really. I think sometimes it is so easy to just try and fit in that you lose who you are. I have always worn what I wanted and styled myself how I wanted but recently I seem to have lost that flare. The shoes or jumper that I would have picked up without a second glance, I now put back down as they are too quirky. I started to think that maybe I was growing up, but actually I think I am just getting boring and this needs to change...quirky Emmy needs to make a return immediately.

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This feeling has a knock on effect with everything. I even wanted to give up this blog at one point, but I know that this would only make me feel worse. This is my little creative, fun place. The place I come to feel better and share my stupid Funko addiction or my favourite lipstick of the moment. I am so proud of myself that I have managed to keep it going for 5 years and really appreciate the love it has received over that whole time. I know that I am not ready to give up this blog at all, I just need to get my life motivation back. Even typing this is making me feel slightly better, I'm finding it quite therapeutic actually.

I think I just need to give myself a good old shake. I don't want this to come across like a woe is me type of thing, I know there are much worse things going on, it is just how I am feeling and was hoping getting it all out in a post may help me out. 



  1. I feel like everyone is going through some struggles with life lately and it's badly affecting their blogs, and it makes me a little sad - and your blog is one of the cutest, if not THE cutest that I follow :) I know exactly how you feel about the routine as I've been feeling the same ever since I started working full time and I can't stand it - my job isn't my life, and it isn't where I want to be in ten years, or even five years time, so something had to change. I'm glad that you aren't giving up on your little internet corner here, and I know nothing I've said is even remotely helpful but just know that you aren't alone and I hope that things get better and you find some way to get your groove back xx

    1. Thank you so much for your comment lovely, your nice words really mean the world to me <3 xxx

  2. I literally just found your blog today and my most recent post is about this issue. I've just come out of the other end of this feeling. I had a routine that was weighing me down too and it really hit my mental health. That 9-5 life is so hard to deal with sometimes. I had to get out of it. So I decided to start freelancing to mix it up. It's amazing! Although it's not for everyone, and it's a risky bet financially, mentally it's wonderful. I do hope you'll find yourself again soon and NOT be put down by the fact you think your clothes are too 'quirky'. They're just you. And I like to think that part of you is just hibernating right now, ready to come back whenever she's ready to. Glad I found your blog! It's super cute btw! x

    1. Thank you so much. I am glad that you are feeling better :) x

  3. I used to feel like this a lot, but now I make sure to make plans, even if it's a friend for coffee, because then I had something to look forward to! You just have to figure out what's right for you :) xx
    Holly ∣ Closingwinter

    1. Thanks lovely, I definitely just need to arrange more things to do :) x


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