As soon as the clocks go back, I really struggle. I struggle to get up, I struggle to have enthusiasm, I basically struggle to do everything. It’s really hard to explain, I am normally a positive petal, but winter really gets me down. I suffer from something called Seasonal Affective Disorder or the winter blues.
Firstly, I would like to apologise for my lack of blogging lately. I mean, I have still blogged but not as routinely as my organised self would like. Secondly, I want to tell you why..
Don’t get me wrong, I love parts of this season. I live for Christmas, I love snow and Halloween makes me happy. But the constant darkness and lack of energy make me want to lay in bed and cry for hours. I went for a walk last week with my mum after work and just sat and cried when I got home. I was crying because it was dark, cold and for reasons I can’t even explain but this is what SAD does to me. Some days I am back to my chirpy self, others I could snuggle down and wallow for hours. A lot of people that know me would probably not have a clue that I feel like this in winter. I’m not being fake or anything, I genuinely am being myself still but after a few hours the sadness hits me again. Normally when I am at home and especially in the evenings. I feel better when I have some fresh air, but it’s getting the motivation to get out into the fresh air that I need to find from somewhere.
I suppose I am just asking you to bear with me. I love this blog and it really upsets me when I simply can’t gather the energy to create a post. I just need to work through it the best way I can. ♥